Free and Easy

Dierks Bently says "Free and Easy down the road I go" this is how I want my life to be.  Not necessarily easy but free....free of choices, thoughts, goals and opinions.  Right now with engineering I feel like I'm living in a glass box.  Everything is so tight and planned out. I want to be happy mentally and physcially,  I want peace and balance and I just want to help people.  I want to go to the gym, skate more, volunteer more, play more football, just LIVE more.  I have to finish out this quarter of engineering but then I'll probably switch to something else.  It's tough to find out about yourself this way; the way of thousands of dollars, heartache, tears, lack of sleep, mood swings, weights shifts, and changing of friends.  To say I've learned a lot about myself since coming to college is an understatement in all sense of the word.  I've learned that there are just some things I'm not very good at and no matter how hard I try I never will be good at them.  I've learned that you can't trust everyone; no one really is always going to be there for you through thick and thin.  I've learned that having a stuffed animal that you sleep with is one of the best cures to any problem.  I've learned that it's okay if you switch your mind. I've learned that nothing, nothing in this life is going to be easy but that's the way it should be.  I've learned that people are really here for themselves and everyone is selfish no matter how much they'd like to deny it.  I've learned that sleep is a luxury and privilege not a right. I've learned that most everyone comes into your life for a reason.  These realizations have made me a stronger person from the inside out. I've learned that you can learn so much about yourself from the people you're around.  Garret has taught me how to have fun and still be a child, Nick has shown me that opening up to someone is really okay, Rachel has taught me to spit my thoughts out of my head and justify my answers, Annie has taught me about family and loving them, Ryan has taught me that it's okay to be happy without pursuing a career for money, Billy has taught me that there are some people you can trust and tell things to knowing they'll be secure, Allison has taught me to look at nature and see life and beauty, Gage has taught me to find my passion and live it and let everyone else live it, Brittney has taught me that a little drama never hurt anyone, Landan has taught me that sometimes the truth hurts because it's real but it's what needs to be said, Scottie has taught me that showing emotion actually is important, Schutte has taught me to pursue a dream, Hannah has taught me to smile, Thomas has taught me that sometimes a self reality check is the only way to go, Becky has taught me how to love your friends honestly, Lizzie has taught me to love life and show others that you do too, Annalee has taught me to embrace the changes of nature and life, Mia has taught me to go out and experience new things, Collin has taught me what it's like to have a true friend, Hannah B. has taught me to take religion seriously and live it, James has taught me that good hugs are sometimes the best way to help someone, Max has taught me that being a nerd who plays the saxophone is still sweet.  There's so much more I have learned from all the people I've come in contact with here.  I take a little of each of them with me all the time. And to conclude from Dierks "You only get to go round one time, sit back and enjoy the ride"

Skiing

It snowed today!!!!!  I went to Keystone to ski with Wyeth, Patrick, Susie and Ali.  We had such a great time.  We all got up at about 7 and got ready to go. It was nice to be awake before everyone else.  The whole drive there we just talked and sang songs.  The jokes began and now we have so many inside jokes and little quirks.  I got my Epic Pass picture taken and we got on the gondola.  We skied over 10 runs and just had a blast. Keystone is a lot like Park City mountain resort. It's pretty easy stuff where you can ski super fast. I like the steeper, more challenging stuff but that's okay we had a great time just laughing. We left to come home at  4:30. There was a sign that said it was going to take 3:55 to get to Denver; I didn't want to believe it. ha We just drove and sang some more and told more jokes and stories. After 2 hours we were at a dead stop and Patrick got out of the car. He started walking and it was hilarious because people just looked at him. He came back to the car and then we went to Dairy King which is a little mom and pop restaurant. I had hot chocolate and a grilled cheese and then we continued our journey. We got back at 9:30. it was crazy but such a good time. It was so nice to be away from everyone; especially everyone in plp for a little bit.  I think PLP is getting really close but drama is beginning. I still love it though. Good times. I'm so happy to be here

Back to school

I'm back! I got back to Denver yesterday and Garret came to the airport to pick up Blair and I.  I have soooo much stuff that I brought back but it's all useful stuff.  It was a weird feeling flying back knowing I won't be home for 4 months and even when I am home it's for a lacrosse tournament.  It's crazy that I have a solid 5 months of school now but it's exciting.  Walking in the dorm was such a great feeling. Everyone came out to give hugs and say hello and how we've missed each other. These people truly are my friends.  I unpacked my stuff and hung out with Rachel for a bit.  More people started getting back so I got to say hi and hang out with them and then finally went to sleep.  This place feels like home.  My 8am physics lab was cancelled so I got to sleep till 9. I then had electrically engineering and found out that we don't have a final in that class so I hope I do well in it.  Right after engineering I had Calc II.  My professor has a french accent and he's a puggy little guy.  He loves math and the class was quiet so I hope that it works well with me.  I'm going to work hard.  I was done with classes by 11:50 today.  So nice just to come back and chill and take care of some stuff.  I'm going to the gym later too.  Yipeeeeeee. it's good to be home :)